I love poker.....I hate poker

It's been a while yet again, and a lot has gone down since the last time I posted. The laziness has definately continued by my standards, but some recent tourny success has really given me some motivation to play more. I dont remember all that has happened since the 6th or whenever my last post was, but all of the interesting stuff has happened lately.
As far as the cash game life goes I havent played a single hand of 6max in probably pushing 2 months now. And for me thats pretty sick, I made a living at that game for a year, and that was pretty much the only game i played NLHE 6max, thats it. So me making some pretty decent money over the course of the last month or so playing games im basically just starting is a big confidence booster for me. Pretty much all i have been doingon the HU scene is HU, mostly 1/2 as of late. And at times I play really well, most of the grinders at the 1/2 level wont play me anymore. I have been obliterating hu at the 1/2 level, I;m having poker tracker issues so i cant give exact num but i would predict high 20's BB/100. Oveer a pretty fair share of hands now...its hard to give a number but in the last 3 weeks about i bet you im up about 6k playing hu 1/2, and a little dabble with 3/6 one night. HOWEVER, this all comes with a but. I'mpretty sure im down close to 3k playing 2/4, which is frustrating. Because i shouldnt be playing 2/4 anyways with my roll. It is just getting sick, i mean ive taken about 4 shots at 2/4 in last month and i just run sooooo bad everytime, its like the poker gods just dont want me to move up....I'm just getting off a little mini session where i went of for not such a mini number. 1500 in a couple minutes almost, just sickening. I play pretty Aggro HU swings are worse, which i know but yet i still play 2/4 with only 12 buyins in my cash game acct? how dumb am I. My problem is patience and disclipline. I just try to get rich fast when all i really need to do is put down the fricken XBOX controller and just grind my ass off like everyone else has to. UGHUGH......
ANYWAYS, thats enough of my whining. I'll talk about my tourny success as of late in my next post.
I really need to take this quote to heart.

In the long run there's no luck in poker, but the short run is longer than most people know. ---Rick bennet