On Full Tilt at the begining of my Full tilt challenge

To say that my "January challenge to conquer 1/2nlhe on FT" has been a disaster would be an understatement..WOW..is the only word I can think of to describe it. I dont think I have ever had a 6k hands span where I ran as horrible as I have the last few days. It was so frustrating I had to wait a couple days to post a blog about it..UGH. The Key word to this bad run is FRUSTRATING!! I'm really not running that horrible in the way that everyone thinks of when they hear running horrible. It's not like I'm having 2 outers hit on me in huge pots or anything like that. It goes a little more like this...I play fairly LAG for a reason, so when I do wake up with big hands..say QQ KK AA, AK,JJ I get alot of action. This is the plan anyway. But the last 6 k hands either i get no action at all with them or I have been forced to lay them down after flop or turn... but sure shit i get 4 callers everytime i raise it up with my 89!! I really wish i had a stat for amount of times an A fell when i had KK or when an A or K hit when i had QQ. If i did have that stat it would be thru the roof compared to what it usually should be. Now obv this happens alot, and it isnt a big deal, but when I c bet and get raised EVERYTIME because my opponent out flopped me EVERYHAND im in with these handsfor like 5k hands in row, this calls for frustration in the worst way for me. And on top of this I think I won about 10% of bigger pot coin flip situations, which also gets annoying after a while hands like thishttp://www.pokerhand.org/index.php?page=view&hand=718634 .... or like this....http://www.pokerhand.org/index.php?page=view&hand=718644 ..hands like and also the smaller ones.. spots like.. I raise to standard 3x and get reraise my some short stack donk, so obv i shove him in for his 40-60 bucks and he instacalls me with his 55, and beats me. Which is fine, was behind i get it, just after losing like 8 of those in a row it aggravates me when It shouldn't... I definately could of played better thru the pain, i thought i had gotten past this problem and usually im ok but for some reason the steam of not being able to win a big hand or get put in a good spot the last 3 days has really gotten to me and affected my play. . Anyway these runs happen, I just need to quit being a... ...and deal with it. I honestly don't know what's going to happen with the challenge, im scared to play right now I dont think im in right frame of mind.. And PT got all screwed up when a tourny summary hand history got mixed in with a cash game hands and i deleted a bunch of hands on accident trying to fix it so the results are all messed up....anyway here are some hands for all u 2 people that proly look at this once in a blue moon to munch on....http://www.pokerhand.org/index.php?page=view&hand=718682...
http://www.pokerhand.org/index.php?page=view&hand=718685....http://www.pokerhand.org/index.php?page=view&hand=718691.

Today: - a little over 1k im guessing at the 1/2 6max
To date: well say -$700 sum?
To go: $8700..lol
Bankroll: $3400